Feb. 26th, 2017

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I don't know what it is. It resembles anger, frustration, disappointment, anxiety, confusion. But it isn't quite any of those, I think.

There is something significant happening in my chest. A hollow feeling. Very much like a hunger pang.

I've had this emotion before, but this is the first time I've really tried to identify it. I was a bit surprised that I couldn't identify it.

So I just played my favorite computer game for like...I dunno how long, maybe 45 minutes. The feeling has mostly subsided. Just kind of mildly sad and...planless. Not knowing how to fix things.

I'm probably gonna have to go to a doctor. I'm gonna eat as much as I want today and see if that affects the fatigue.

The weather has been nice but I still can't go cycling. Shit's closed down around here, can't get out to the road. No word from the housing coordinator about finding me a new place.

No word from voc rehab, either. Over one month after I asked, my counselor sent me a cryptic message about the certificate I want (wanted?) to pursue. I asked for clarification and haven't heard from her since. Maybe I'll just give up on the certificate and ask for a desk. My editing skills are probably good enough. I just need to market myself.

Dunno what I'm going to do with myself today. Oh! Besides reading, I mean. I've finally gotten back into Yurugu: An Afrikan-Centered Critique of European Thought and Behavior. The writing is not as explicit as I'd like, but I suppose that is because of the subject. Culture is a difficult thing to pin down. Other than that, I find the book quite illuminating so far.
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